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Not the first time this has been brought up, but I don't know what exactly.

Filming is definitely what I want to do for life, but somehow I think I shouldn't pursue it. Mainly because there are so many others that want the same job as well. I know, I know "you don't get alot from just shooting/filming", the "oh, there's a ton of film director wannabes out there", the whole big bang about it being a suckyass thing to do, and then there's the hype of actually doing something, but there's something under all of that that is getting to me.

How can what I want to do help the world, and in return help me?

I don't know, and clearly probably never will. So I'm still aimlessly thinking and filming. I rarely use my youtube anyways, since none of my videos are worthy to be placed on there (nor do I want the whole world watching.)

As for my gaiaonline profiling, the spark isn't coming back to me at all. I know I have my list of profile to make for myself before I ever leave, but that was when the spark was here. And now it's gone. :C